Why I've Been Silent part1

Where in the World is D Today?

Trying to figure out a new path out of this cave.

OK, here's the deal. My mood over the last 2 months has been bad.... real bad. I used to know the way out when I would get in these funks. But things are different now. I can't describe it really other than to say my circumstances are different. I'm still the same guy, I think, but being in Taiwan has given this..... thing... a new dimension.

I don't know if you can call emotions a thing but I haven't got the words. And that's just it, no clarity of thought. I manage to do my teaching very well. In class, I'm ALL There. Away from class.... I'm a total flake.

So how is my mood today? Ah.... So-so. But when I'm in a funk, I don't feel like writing. The great irony in that is writing helps the funk dissipate. I am hoping it will help a little tonight. After I post this I will go to bed. Writing helps get stuff out of my head. But when I'm in "flake mode" its hard to gather up those thoughts and shepherd them out of my head and onto the page.

I am trying to get back in the habit of writing. If you are a regular reader, thanks. Not so much for reading but for being interested in me, for whatever reason. I feel a lot of isolation. If someone shows interest in me, I'm always a little surprised. (sorry my self-esteem is not at it's optimum right now.)

Good Luck

D

Something Made Smile Today

Where in the World is D?

Coming Up Air.

My last few posts to the blog have been .... well..... Not terribly encouraging. So I thought I would tell you something today that made me smile.

I got to TEACH!

Yeah, that's it. Nothing earth shaking or deeply thoughtful. No grand revelation or Salma Hayek proposing to me. Just teaching.

I like teaching. Sometimes, I am most at peace in the classroom. I'm sure there's some deep psychological reason, but I'm not going to over think it. I'm just going to enjoy the feeling.

Good Luck!

戴格智

Something New for Non-Native English Speakers 一些新的非英語母語者

Where In The World is D Today?

Adding new features to the blog.

Hello, If you look over to the left, you will see Google Translate. It is not a "perfect" translation instrument but it's better than others I've tried. If you are not a native English speaker and are interested in my blog give it a try!

If you're a native English speaker, a friend or family member in the U.S. Check out the Link below and learn some Chinese. Peggy is a Super Cool friend of mind and has fun teaching. I think you'll like her videos. http://www.peggyteacheschinese.com/

Good Luck

戴格智

凡在今天的世界是D？

增加新的功能的博客。

您好，如果您查看的左側，您會看到谷歌翻譯。這不是一個“完美”的翻譯工具，但總比別人我已經試過。如果您不是以英語為母語，並有興趣在我的博客嘗試一下！

祝您好運

戴格智

Run Silent, Run Deep

Where in the World is D Today?

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Run Silent, Run Deep is a old war movie about a submarine crew. It seems an appropriate metaphor now.

Last week I was in a real funky mood. My mood is generally better this week. But I find myself talking less. Being more inwardly reflective. Dark clouds often hover on the horizon. Sometimes they roll in and stay like a typhoon in my mind. Sometimes, it's just a quick thunderstorm. It comes and goes within a matter of hours. I'll give you the sources without explanation. Most people don't take the time to really try to SEE and not judge, so why bother.

Physical Pain EVERY DAY for the last 3-4 months.

Loneliness

Frustration with learning a new language

Good Luck

戴格智

The Truth or A Reasonable Lie

Where in the World is D Today?

I have no idea.

This will be short, I think. There are three versions of "the truth". There is 1) My Truth, 2) Your Truth, 3) The Real Truth. (I can always tell you what I really think. But I don't think you really want to know. So I tell you a reasonable lie. Something close to but not actually MY truth and keeps YOU happy at the same time.)

Truth's number 1 and 2 are subjective. Based on our own perspective and life experience. What's true for you may not necessarily be true for me.

So what is the REAL TRUTH, not based on my or your opinion and perspective......?

I was thinking of this as I walked to work. Right now, I am not in the greatest place emotionally. I was searching my head and knowledge for something that was Universally TRUE without subjectivity for EVERY person on the earth. I could only come up with this in my 10 minute walk.

THIS, I know to be true for EVERYONE. The sun rises in the east and sets in the west. If that ceases to exist, WE ALL just had a VERY... BAD.... day.

At the end I usually say Peace. I can't today or any more. I have none. I haven't for a long time, even before I came to Taiwan. Hoped to find some here. Doesn't look like it's gonna happen. So I will say... simply...

Good Luck

戴格智