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Where in the World is D today?
Looking over the balcony at joyful kids running and playing.
Today is the first day of school. It's been a really quiet day for me. I'm looking forward to spending a whole year with my students. I want to see what I and they can do in a whole year.
Coming in the middle of the year last year was an interestest transition for us all. This job, as much as I love it, can be filled with periods of ...... inactivity. Today's one of those days. So I watch the kids on their break and smile.
I want to be a good teacher. It's the one the few thing I don't question in my life. I know I can teach. I want to get in there and do it! (Somebody keep note of that when I'm feeling less enthusiastic in the future.)
But in the meantime, I will soak up all that unbridaled energy and try to focus it into something strong.
Peace
戴格智
Monday, August 31, 2009
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Simple and Mundane
Where in the World is D Today?
Nowhere. Today is the same as yesterday and the day before that.
A few days ago I was chatting online with Tim's girlfriend, Alia. Alia is truly one of my favorite people on this earth. During the chat she made a comment that was something like, "Since you left you have all this crazy stuff happen to you." I of course responded with I only write about the "interesting" stuff and my life is not as crazy as it may appear on the blog. If I work to keep a daily account of my life on the blog, it would look a little something like this.....
Got up. Turned on CNN. (CNN in Tawain is Different than in the U.S. It's based in Hong Kong and doesn't have any national focus. It's very global.)
More coverage of "The Ashes" Cricket tournament?! Good lord, how long is this match going to be?! And who cares. Do I really need to know the weather in Mumbai?
Take a shower, have a glass of doujiang (soybean milk) and some bread. And I'm out the door.
Walk to work. Waved at 4 people along the way.
Said one generic good morning to my co-corkes when I come in, turn on my computer and get some hot water for my morning cup of liu cha (green tea).
Check my email, and MSN.
Check the U.S. news on the internet.
*Depending on the day, I am either teaching, surfing the net, or chatting on MSN, or practicing my Chinese. It will probably be some combination of all those activities on any given day.
Get of work and walk to Starbucks or the gym.
Get some dinner, walk home.
Talk to Jackie, the doorman, for a few minutes and go to my apartment.
Check my mail, maybe chat on msn, maybe watch a movie. Read a little Go to bed.
There you have it. My life in a nutshell. Not very interesting.
Is there more stuff that happens during the day, yeah, but I don't think you want to read. "Crossed the street 100 times today and didn't die."
Being the thinker that I am, my brain is of course a lot more active than my body.
My thoughts as I walk from point to point range from the ridiculous, "I wish I could make all time stop! And if I could what would I do?" To the really Duh, that's so obvious, "Boy, this walk would be a lot easier if the sidewalk was level." But lately most of my thoughts as I walk are about my foot, which still hurts, and if I am "Doing whatever it is in Taiwan I'm supposed to be doing." You know my regular search for meaning and purpose.
So there you have it, My so-called life in a nutshell. I shouldn't be sarcastic. I have a good life. Today I was able to get out of the bed; think, dress, eat, and go to the bathroom on my own. A lot of people who wanted to, couldn't do that today. So even as I search for meaning and the ever elusive peace and comfort, I know it could be worse and I am truly thankful for my simple and mundane life.
Peace
戴格智
Nowhere. Today is the same as yesterday and the day before that.
A few days ago I was chatting online with Tim's girlfriend, Alia. Alia is truly one of my favorite people on this earth. During the chat she made a comment that was something like, "Since you left you have all this crazy stuff happen to you." I of course responded with I only write about the "interesting" stuff and my life is not as crazy as it may appear on the blog. If I work to keep a daily account of my life on the blog, it would look a little something like this.....
Got up. Turned on CNN. (CNN in Tawain is Different than in the U.S. It's based in Hong Kong and doesn't have any national focus. It's very global.)
More coverage of "The Ashes" Cricket tournament?! Good lord, how long is this match going to be?! And who cares. Do I really need to know the weather in Mumbai?
Take a shower, have a glass of doujiang (soybean milk) and some bread. And I'm out the door.
Walk to work. Waved at 4 people along the way.
Said one generic good morning to my co-corkes when I come in, turn on my computer and get some hot water for my morning cup of liu cha (green tea).
Check my email, and MSN.
Check the U.S. news on the internet.
*Depending on the day, I am either teaching, surfing the net, or chatting on MSN, or practicing my Chinese. It will probably be some combination of all those activities on any given day.
Get of work and walk to Starbucks or the gym.
Get some dinner, walk home.
Talk to Jackie, the doorman, for a few minutes and go to my apartment.
Check my mail, maybe chat on msn, maybe watch a movie. Read a little Go to bed.
There you have it. My life in a nutshell. Not very interesting.
Is there more stuff that happens during the day, yeah, but I don't think you want to read. "Crossed the street 100 times today and didn't die."
Being the thinker that I am, my brain is of course a lot more active than my body.
My thoughts as I walk from point to point range from the ridiculous, "I wish I could make all time stop! And if I could what would I do?" To the really Duh, that's so obvious, "Boy, this walk would be a lot easier if the sidewalk was level." But lately most of my thoughts as I walk are about my foot, which still hurts, and if I am "Doing whatever it is in Taiwan I'm supposed to be doing." You know my regular search for meaning and purpose.
So there you have it, My so-called life in a nutshell. I shouldn't be sarcastic. I have a good life. Today I was able to get out of the bed; think, dress, eat, and go to the bathroom on my own. A lot of people who wanted to, couldn't do that today. So even as I search for meaning and the ever elusive peace and comfort, I know it could be worse and I am truly thankful for my simple and mundane life.
Peace
戴格智
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Mountain Climbing at Three Valleys
Where in the World is D?
Enjoying the View.
Last week I went mountain climbing on Three Valley's Mountain with my friend Even, my Chinese Teacher and friend Zoe and my new friends from National Central University. When invited me she did indeed say "mountain climbing". I asked if it were difficult. She said no. So I thought when she said climbing, she meant "hiking". (These misunderstandings happen all the time.) Well she DID indeed mean CLIMBING! And it wasn't easy. It was hard!
I hurt my foot about 2/3 of the way down the mountain and had to go to the hospital. Slipped on a wet rock. Hey! It happens. I was looking at the blood from the leach I pulled off a few minutes before. My hand bled the rest of the way down the mountain. (That reads really bad, and while it wasn't good, it wasn't as bad as it seems.) Another side note: The pictures don't completely capture the beauty of the mountain or the genuine danger of some of the situations. At no point were any of us attached to a safety line. I'm still not sure if that is adventurous or just stupid. HA!
In the end it was a GREAT DAY with friends and nature. My hand eventually stopped bleeding. My foot still hurts a little but is fine after some quality affordable health care. Here are some of the pics of this very good day.
Enjoying the View.
Last week I went mountain climbing on Three Valley's Mountain with my friend Even, my Chinese Teacher and friend Zoe and my new friends from National Central University. When invited me she did indeed say "mountain climbing". I asked if it were difficult. She said no. So I thought when she said climbing, she meant "hiking". (These misunderstandings happen all the time.) Well she DID indeed mean CLIMBING! And it wasn't easy. It was hard!
I hurt my foot about 2/3 of the way down the mountain and had to go to the hospital. Slipped on a wet rock. Hey! It happens. I was looking at the blood from the leach I pulled off a few minutes before. My hand bled the rest of the way down the mountain. (That reads really bad, and while it wasn't good, it wasn't as bad as it seems.) Another side note: The pictures don't completely capture the beauty of the mountain or the genuine danger of some of the situations. At no point were any of us attached to a safety line. I'm still not sure if that is adventurous or just stupid. HA!
In the end it was a GREAT DAY with friends and nature. My hand eventually stopped bleeding. My foot still hurts a little but is fine after some quality affordable health care. Here are some of the pics of this very good day.
Monday, August 17, 2009
A Few Thoughts On the Health Care Debate
Where in the World is D Today?
Smiling About His Health Care in Taiwan.
I will try to make this simple and not a long rant.
I have been following the debate, or rather the scare tactics of the republicans. I am also totally amazed at what people will believe! I am also very disappointed in the level of Racism in this argument directed towards President Obama...... OK, the rant is being so I will stop... for the moment.
Here's the deal. I have gotten hurt a few times in the last month. Each time I was able to get affordable health care. Today when I went to the doctor I received acupuncture, some sort of steam treatment, massage and a medical wrap; plus two wraps to put on tomorrow. All for 100NT. In U.S. Dollars, that is about $3.50. Yes, you read that right, $3.50!
Taiwan has a National Health Care System, that even a foreigner can use. I buy into it just like everybody else. And my monthly premiums are about 1/3 of what I would pay in the U.S.
OK, for those of you that think, I'm not getting "real" medical care, I am not a doctor, but I know I feel better, faster than I would in the U.S.! And, for the record, x-rays and other "Western" medical treatments are covered as well. Again, for far less, than what I would pay in the U.S. I've had those services as well.
So, All of this is to give you a first had account that a National Health Care system can and does work. And I get treated in the office. I don't have to make an appointment to see another series of doctors in another office on another day. I saw one Doctor and two specialists today. All in the same office thank you very much.
The health care system here works. Period. AND also for the record, if you want to see a special/personal doctor you can. You pay extra for it, but that's fair. You can get the service you want.
I know the U.S. is a larger country, but our biggest obstacle is history. We've never done anything like this, that alone makes it hard. Throw in all the competing financial interests of pharmaceutical and insurance companies and you have a major fight on your hands.
But what if Americas leaders decided that people should be helped more than protecting the profit margins of corporations.
America revolves around capitalism. There is no changing that. And quite frankly, I do not want to. Capitalism itself isn't bad. Pharmaceutical and insurance companies should be allowed to make a profit. But in a free market system, let's see what the market can bear. If corporations do indeed have a better product, then they'll be fine. A national system won't hurt. Except maybe their profit margin will be 100 billion instead of 300. We're still talking about 100 BILLION. That's still a lot of profit.
In the end everybody wins. We get a healthier nation AND people make money. Why Not. But it will take guts on the part of Congress. Correction, it doesn't take guts, it take having the backbone to do the work of the people, put peoples needs and interests first.
That will make our great nation even better.
Peace
戴格智
Smiling About His Health Care in Taiwan.
I will try to make this simple and not a long rant.
I have been following the debate, or rather the scare tactics of the republicans. I am also totally amazed at what people will believe! I am also very disappointed in the level of Racism in this argument directed towards President Obama...... OK, the rant is being so I will stop... for the moment.
Here's the deal. I have gotten hurt a few times in the last month. Each time I was able to get affordable health care. Today when I went to the doctor I received acupuncture, some sort of steam treatment, massage and a medical wrap; plus two wraps to put on tomorrow. All for 100NT. In U.S. Dollars, that is about $3.50. Yes, you read that right, $3.50!
Taiwan has a National Health Care System, that even a foreigner can use. I buy into it just like everybody else. And my monthly premiums are about 1/3 of what I would pay in the U.S.
OK, for those of you that think, I'm not getting "real" medical care, I am not a doctor, but I know I feel better, faster than I would in the U.S.! And, for the record, x-rays and other "Western" medical treatments are covered as well. Again, for far less, than what I would pay in the U.S. I've had those services as well.
So, All of this is to give you a first had account that a National Health Care system can and does work. And I get treated in the office. I don't have to make an appointment to see another series of doctors in another office on another day. I saw one Doctor and two specialists today. All in the same office thank you very much.
The health care system here works. Period. AND also for the record, if you want to see a special/personal doctor you can. You pay extra for it, but that's fair. You can get the service you want.
I know the U.S. is a larger country, but our biggest obstacle is history. We've never done anything like this, that alone makes it hard. Throw in all the competing financial interests of pharmaceutical and insurance companies and you have a major fight on your hands.
But what if Americas leaders decided that people should be helped more than protecting the profit margins of corporations.
America revolves around capitalism. There is no changing that. And quite frankly, I do not want to. Capitalism itself isn't bad. Pharmaceutical and insurance companies should be allowed to make a profit. But in a free market system, let's see what the market can bear. If corporations do indeed have a better product, then they'll be fine. A national system won't hurt. Except maybe their profit margin will be 100 billion instead of 300. We're still talking about 100 BILLION. That's still a lot of profit.
In the end everybody wins. We get a healthier nation AND people make money. Why Not. But it will take guts on the part of Congress. Correction, it doesn't take guts, it take having the backbone to do the work of the people, put peoples needs and interests first.
That will make our great nation even better.
Peace
戴格智
Especially for Family and Friends In America
Where in the World is D Today?
Safe and Sound in the North of Taiwan.
I want to tell everyone I am Fine. I am Safe, Dry, and cared for by some great people in Taiwan.
The Typhoon hit the south part of Taiwan hardest. The conditions down there are indeed quite terrible. But where I am is very safe.
There was an Earth quake in the sea south of Japan today. It registered a 6.7. That's a good size earth quake, and it was felt in Taiwan. My apartment shook for a good 20-30 seconds. Which feels like and eternity while its happening. I was awake when it happened. I appreciate Mother Nature giving me a break this time and not doing it in the middle of the night. LOL
I don't like earth quakes. Not even a little. But it is a fact of life here and I accept it. Just like Typhoons. It one of those things that comes with living on an Island.
Try not to worry too much. Remember to listen for my city Jhongli, (pronounced jong lee).
I love you all and miss you very much.
Peace
戴格智 a.k.a Darryl, Papa, D, D.A.
Safe and Sound in the North of Taiwan.
I want to tell everyone I am Fine. I am Safe, Dry, and cared for by some great people in Taiwan.
The Typhoon hit the south part of Taiwan hardest. The conditions down there are indeed quite terrible. But where I am is very safe.
There was an Earth quake in the sea south of Japan today. It registered a 6.7. That's a good size earth quake, and it was felt in Taiwan. My apartment shook for a good 20-30 seconds. Which feels like and eternity while its happening. I was awake when it happened. I appreciate Mother Nature giving me a break this time and not doing it in the middle of the night. LOL
I don't like earth quakes. Not even a little. But it is a fact of life here and I accept it. Just like Typhoons. It one of those things that comes with living on an Island.
Try not to worry too much. Remember to listen for my city Jhongli, (pronounced jong lee).
I love you all and miss you very much.
Peace
戴格智 a.k.a Darryl, Papa, D, D.A.
Earth Quake
Where in the World is D Today
Trying Not To Throw Up.
It is about one minute after an Earth Quake. I didn't freak out like the last time. But I really don't like earth quakes. Yes, I was still a little afraid, but much calmer this time.
The thing is, that sudden motion and the uncontrolled nature of it, makes my body respond badly. I didn't throw up this time, but I sure want to. I'm hoping writing will bring my equilibrium back.
Peace
戴格智
Trying Not To Throw Up.
It is about one minute after an Earth Quake. I didn't freak out like the last time. But I really don't like earth quakes. Yes, I was still a little afraid, but much calmer this time.
The thing is, that sudden motion and the uncontrolled nature of it, makes my body respond badly. I didn't throw up this time, but I sure want to. I'm hoping writing will bring my equilibrium back.
Peace
戴格智
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Thoreau Is Deep and Obvious - Typhoon Day 3
Where in the World is D?
Hangin'Out With Henry David Thoreau.
The problem with not having internet or cable during a typhoon is it gives one, more specifically me, too much time to poke around inside my own psyche. I've always been a deep thinker about the world and my place in it. So to my friends who say, "you think too much." I say, well... maybe. But how do any of us grow lest we put thought into the what's, why's, and how's of life.
I don't think you can really make a living at philosophy, nor am I trying to, so I offer the following quotes by Thoreau to express my current thoughts and feelings, the dichotomy of those feelings and a short response to each.
"The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation." 大眾的男子導致生活安靜絕望。I don't know about the mass of men, but this definitely me these days.
"It's not what you look at that matters, it's what you see."
這不是什麼你看看這問題，那是你看到的。Being able to see the difference between Your truth, My truth and the real truth is the challenge isn't it?
"Things do not change; we change." 事情並沒有改變，我們的變化。Hmmm. Time is the Only constant in the universe. Whether you call it minutes, hours, or days. It Always goes at the same rate with the rising and setting of the sun each day. If the sun stops rising in the east and setting in the west, we are going to have a VERY BAD DAY. Outside the passing of time, CHANGE in inevitable. Knowing when to change AND what change to make is the trick.
Peace
戴格智
Hangin'Out With Henry David Thoreau.
The problem with not having internet or cable during a typhoon is it gives one, more specifically me, too much time to poke around inside my own psyche. I've always been a deep thinker about the world and my place in it. So to my friends who say, "you think too much." I say, well... maybe. But how do any of us grow lest we put thought into the what's, why's, and how's of life.
I don't think you can really make a living at philosophy, nor am I trying to, so I offer the following quotes by Thoreau to express my current thoughts and feelings, the dichotomy of those feelings and a short response to each.
"The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation." 大眾的男子導致生活安靜絕望。I don't know about the mass of men, but this definitely me these days.
"It's not what you look at that matters, it's what you see."
這不是什麼你看看這問題，那是你看到的。Being able to see the difference between Your truth, My truth and the real truth is the challenge isn't it?
"Things do not change; we change." 事情並沒有改變，我們的變化。Hmmm. Time is the Only constant in the universe. Whether you call it minutes, hours, or days. It Always goes at the same rate with the rising and setting of the sun each day. If the sun stops rising in the east and setting in the west, we are going to have a VERY BAD DAY. Outside the passing of time, CHANGE in inevitable. Knowing when to change AND what change to make is the trick.
Peace
戴格智
Friday, August 7, 2009
Typhoon Day!! Day 1
Where in the World is D Today?
Chillin' at Starbucks.
Today I didn't have to work because it's a Typhoon Day! Here in Jhongli, it's not too bad, so far. I walked to Starbucks without any problems. The hardest part of my walk was convincing the guy outside the KTV I really did NOT want to come in for a beer.
*That will make sense to Taiwan people, but not to everybody else. In short, there are two types of KTV. One type of KTV you go sing with your friends, be silly and have fun. The other KTV men go to, "to have a..... beer" You can fill in the blanks yourself.
Since I have the basic philosophy and personality type that will talk to anybody who is friendly to me, it sometimes leads to interesting and sometimes comical situations. The KTV guys are usually very nice to me but usually don't speak English. So the explanations of "beer" are usually physical gestures and pretty descriptive. Everybody usually has a pretty good laugh at it. Like I said, they're always nice to me. But I have enough Chinese now, that I can tell them No, I don't want that. They smile and wave and say bye-bye. Sometimes they give me a card and shake my hand. I have generally stopped going down the streets where I know that I will get approached. But it was during the day and these places are generally closed early afternoon. But maybe they open early on Typhoon Days! Or maybe everybody doesn't get the day off for Typhoon Days. Starbucks is open, so why not KTV. The service industry is the service industry no matter how you slice it, right? HA!
They rest of my Typhoon day looks to be a bit boring. My landlord didn't pay the internet/cable bill!! I'm irritated on multiple levels. There's a Typhoon and I'm completely cut off from the world unless I go out in to the dang Typhoon to use the internet at starbucks.
I went to the gym but it was closed for the Typhoon Day. It should be noted that I do understand why some places are closed. People commute from all over. So just because it is sort of calm in Jhongli, another county may be getting hammered. So it is safest to NOT make people go to work. So I'll keep hanging out here at Starbucks for a bit. Do some Chinese homework, etc. I can write my Chinese name now. It takes about a full minute to do. But that is a big improvement from it taking 2-3 minutes just to write the first word!
That'll do it for now.
Peace
戴格智
Chillin' at Starbucks.
Today I didn't have to work because it's a Typhoon Day! Here in Jhongli, it's not too bad, so far. I walked to Starbucks without any problems. The hardest part of my walk was convincing the guy outside the KTV I really did NOT want to come in for a beer.
*That will make sense to Taiwan people, but not to everybody else. In short, there are two types of KTV. One type of KTV you go sing with your friends, be silly and have fun. The other KTV men go to, "to have a..... beer" You can fill in the blanks yourself.
Since I have the basic philosophy and personality type that will talk to anybody who is friendly to me, it sometimes leads to interesting and sometimes comical situations. The KTV guys are usually very nice to me but usually don't speak English. So the explanations of "beer" are usually physical gestures and pretty descriptive. Everybody usually has a pretty good laugh at it. Like I said, they're always nice to me. But I have enough Chinese now, that I can tell them No, I don't want that. They smile and wave and say bye-bye. Sometimes they give me a card and shake my hand. I have generally stopped going down the streets where I know that I will get approached. But it was during the day and these places are generally closed early afternoon. But maybe they open early on Typhoon Days! Or maybe everybody doesn't get the day off for Typhoon Days. Starbucks is open, so why not KTV. The service industry is the service industry no matter how you slice it, right? HA!
They rest of my Typhoon day looks to be a bit boring. My landlord didn't pay the internet/cable bill!! I'm irritated on multiple levels. There's a Typhoon and I'm completely cut off from the world unless I go out in to the dang Typhoon to use the internet at starbucks.
I went to the gym but it was closed for the Typhoon Day. It should be noted that I do understand why some places are closed. People commute from all over. So just because it is sort of calm in Jhongli, another county may be getting hammered. So it is safest to NOT make people go to work. So I'll keep hanging out here at Starbucks for a bit. Do some Chinese homework, etc. I can write my Chinese name now. It takes about a full minute to do. But that is a big improvement from it taking 2-3 minutes just to write the first word!
That'll do it for now.
Peace
戴格智
Sunday, August 2, 2009
More Growing Pains - May Force Silence
Where in the World is D Today?
Listening to “Angry Music” in Starbucks. The playlist tonight is Living Colour, James Brown, Hazard To Your Booty, Jay-Z, and The Red Hot Chili Peppers.
I’m really frustrated right now. Nah…. Frustrated is the wrong word….. Hmmmm? Is there ONE word to describe feeling lost, lonely, angry, annoyed, stupid and worried all at the same time?
Culture Shock is getting the better of me right now. It feels like a losing battle and I'll never get really comfortable. I know intellectually it'll be better at some point. But Emotionally, right now, it feels horrible.
I want to talk, but, every time I open my mouth …. I get misunderstood. I think that misunderstand comes from a natural language barrier, my inability to express the complexities of my mind in elementary English. Also adding to this are the huge cultural differences of age, background, and life experience.
I can see my friends genuinely WANT to understand what’s bothering me, but too often, because of cultural differences I think, they do not see why this thing or that thing is such a worry. And I get “just don’t worry about it. Be happy.” I want to scream every time I hear that phrase now. I hear it a lot!
The basic choice I have now is to not say anything and just put on a happy face. That seems the best (most culturally proper) thing for me to do. It’s good for them, but for me…. Mmm not so much. Talking is good therapy for me. So will apologize in advance that more of my blog entries might tend to be a bit on the depressed side of things.
I suppose I could just write and not share, but that sort of defeats the purpose. The point of the blog is to let you see the world from my perspective… to let you inside my head a bit.
Anybody care to give me your thoughts on what you want to see on the blog?
I’m going to try something new now. I am going to post some song lyrics. The song is Under the Bridge by the Red Hot Chili Peppers. The song speaks in metaphors just like I do and it resonates with me strongly right now. When I get frustrated I walk. Hopefully you’ll understand when you read. I know there are a few mistakes in the Chinese, but I don’t know how to change them.
Peace ~ 戴格智
Under The Bridge ~ Red Hot Chili Peppers
Sometimes I feel
Like I dont have a partner
Sometimes I feel
Like my only friend
Is the city I live in
The city of angel
Lonely as I am
Together we cry
I drive on her streets
cause shes my companion
I walk through her hills
cause she knows who I am
She sees my good deeds
And she kisses me windy
I never worry
Now that is a lie
I dont ever want to feel
Like I did that day
Take me to the place I love
Take me all the way
Its hard to believe
That theres nobody out there
Its hard to believe
That Im all alone
At least I have her love
The city she loves me
Lonely as I am
Together we cry
I dont ever want to feel
Like I did that day
Take me to the place I love
Take me all the way
Under the bridge downtown
Is where I drew some blood
Under the bridge downtown
I could not get enough
Under the bridge downtown
Forgot about my love
Under the bridge downtown
I gave my life away
橋下〜紅辣椒
有時候，我覺得
我不喜歡的合作夥伴
有時候，我覺得
像我唯一的朋友
是我住在城市
天使城
孤獨的我
我們一起哭
我開她的街道
我的同伴事業喜
我走過她的丘陵
導致她知道我是誰
她看到我的好事
她親吻我的風
我從來不擔心
現在這是一個謊言
我不想要的感覺
像我這一天
請帶我去的地方我愛
把我所有的道路
其很難相信
這人有theres
其很難相信
即時通訊獨自
至少我有她的愛
這個城市，她愛我
孤獨的我
我們一起哭
我不想要的感覺
像我這一天
請帶我去的地方我愛
把我所有的道路
在市中心的橋樑
就是我提請一些血液
在市中心的橋樑
我無法獲得足夠的
在市中心的橋樑
忘了我的愛
在市中心的橋樑
我給了我生命
Listening to “Angry Music” in Starbucks. The playlist tonight is Living Colour, James Brown, Hazard To Your Booty, Jay-Z, and The Red Hot Chili Peppers.
I’m really frustrated right now. Nah…. Frustrated is the wrong word….. Hmmmm? Is there ONE word to describe feeling lost, lonely, angry, annoyed, stupid and worried all at the same time?
Culture Shock is getting the better of me right now. It feels like a losing battle and I'll never get really comfortable. I know intellectually it'll be better at some point. But Emotionally, right now, it feels horrible.
I want to talk, but, every time I open my mouth …. I get misunderstood. I think that misunderstand comes from a natural language barrier, my inability to express the complexities of my mind in elementary English. Also adding to this are the huge cultural differences of age, background, and life experience.
I can see my friends genuinely WANT to understand what’s bothering me, but too often, because of cultural differences I think, they do not see why this thing or that thing is such a worry. And I get “just don’t worry about it. Be happy.” I want to scream every time I hear that phrase now. I hear it a lot!
The basic choice I have now is to not say anything and just put on a happy face. That seems the best (most culturally proper) thing for me to do. It’s good for them, but for me…. Mmm not so much. Talking is good therapy for me. So will apologize in advance that more of my blog entries might tend to be a bit on the depressed side of things.
I suppose I could just write and not share, but that sort of defeats the purpose. The point of the blog is to let you see the world from my perspective… to let you inside my head a bit.
Anybody care to give me your thoughts on what you want to see on the blog?
I’m going to try something new now. I am going to post some song lyrics. The song is Under the Bridge by the Red Hot Chili Peppers. The song speaks in metaphors just like I do and it resonates with me strongly right now. When I get frustrated I walk. Hopefully you’ll understand when you read. I know there are a few mistakes in the Chinese, but I don’t know how to change them.
Peace ~ 戴格智
Under The Bridge ~ Red Hot Chili Peppers
Sometimes I feel
Like I dont have a partner
Sometimes I feel
Like my only friend
Is the city I live in
The city of angel
Lonely as I am
Together we cry
I drive on her streets
cause shes my companion
I walk through her hills
cause she knows who I am
She sees my good deeds
And she kisses me windy
I never worry
Now that is a lie
I dont ever want to feel
Like I did that day
Take me to the place I love
Take me all the way
Its hard to believe
That theres nobody out there
Its hard to believe
That Im all alone
At least I have her love
The city she loves me
Lonely as I am
Together we cry
I dont ever want to feel
Like I did that day
Take me to the place I love
Take me all the way
Under the bridge downtown
Is where I drew some blood
Under the bridge downtown
I could not get enough
Under the bridge downtown
Forgot about my love
Under the bridge downtown
I gave my life away
橋下〜紅辣椒
有時候，我覺得
我不喜歡的合作夥伴
有時候，我覺得
像我唯一的朋友
是我住在城市
天使城
孤獨的我
我們一起哭
我開她的街道
我的同伴事業喜
我走過她的丘陵
導致她知道我是誰
她看到我的好事
她親吻我的風
我從來不擔心
現在這是一個謊言
我不想要的感覺
像我這一天
請帶我去的地方我愛
把我所有的道路
其很難相信
這人有theres
其很難相信
即時通訊獨自
至少我有她的愛
這個城市，她愛我
孤獨的我
我們一起哭
我不想要的感覺
像我這一天
請帶我去的地方我愛
把我所有的道路
在市中心的橋樑
就是我提請一些血液
在市中心的橋樑
我無法獲得足夠的
在市中心的橋樑
忘了我的愛
在市中心的橋樑
我給了我生命
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