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Where in the World is D Today?
Listening to “Angry Music” in Starbucks. The playlist tonight is Living Colour, James Brown, Hazard To Your Booty, Jay-Z, and The Red Hot Chili Peppers.
I’m really frustrated right now. Nah…. Frustrated is the wrong word….. Hmmmm? Is there ONE word to describe feeling lost, lonely, angry, annoyed, stupid and worried all at the same time?
Culture Shock is getting the better of me right now. It feels like a losing battle and I'll never get really comfortable. I know intellectually it'll be better at some point. But Emotionally, right now, it feels horrible.
I want to talk, but, every time I open my mouth …. I get misunderstood. I think that misunderstand comes from a natural language barrier, my inability to express the complexities of my mind in elementary English. Also adding to this are the huge cultural differences of age, background, and life experience.
I can see my friends genuinely WANT to understand what’s bothering me, but too often, because of cultural differences I think, they do not see why this thing or that thing is such a worry. And I get “just don’t worry about it. Be happy.” I want to scream every time I hear that phrase now. I hear it a lot!
The basic choice I have now is to not say anything and just put on a happy face. That seems the best (most culturally proper) thing for me to do. It’s good for them, but for me…. Mmm not so much. Talking is good therapy for me. So will apologize in advance that more of my blog entries might tend to be a bit on the depressed side of things.
I suppose I could just write and not share, but that sort of defeats the purpose. The point of the blog is to let you see the world from my perspective… to let you inside my head a bit.
Anybody care to give me your thoughts on what you want to see on the blog?
I’m going to try something new now. I am going to post some song lyrics. The song is Under the Bridge by the Red Hot Chili Peppers. The song speaks in metaphors just like I do and it resonates with me strongly right now. When I get frustrated I walk. Hopefully you’ll understand when you read. I know there are a few mistakes in the Chinese, but I don’t know how to change them.
Peace ~ 戴格智
Under The Bridge ~ Red Hot Chili Peppers
Sometimes I feel
Like I dont have a partner
Sometimes I feel
Like my only friend
Is the city I live in
The city of angel
Lonely as I am
Together we cry
I drive on her streets
cause shes my companion
I walk through her hills
cause she knows who I am
She sees my good deeds
And she kisses me windy
I never worry
Now that is a lie
I dont ever want to feel
Like I did that day
Take me to the place I love
Take me all the way
Its hard to believe
That theres nobody out there
Its hard to believe
That Im all alone
At least I have her love
The city she loves me
Lonely as I am
Together we cry
I dont ever want to feel
Like I did that day
Take me to the place I love
Take me all the way
Under the bridge downtown
Is where I drew some blood
Under the bridge downtown
I could not get enough
Under the bridge downtown
Forgot about my love
Under the bridge downtown
I gave my life away
橋下〜紅辣椒
有時候，我覺得
我不喜歡的合作夥伴
有時候，我覺得
像我唯一的朋友
是我住在城市
天使城
孤獨的我
我們一起哭
我開她的街道
我的同伴事業喜
我走過她的丘陵
導致她知道我是誰
她看到我的好事
她親吻我的風
我從來不擔心
現在這是一個謊言
我不想要的感覺
像我這一天
請帶我去的地方我愛
把我所有的道路
其很難相信
這人有theres
其很難相信
即時通訊獨自
至少我有她的愛
這個城市，她愛我
孤獨的我
我們一起哭
我不想要的感覺
像我這一天
請帶我去的地方我愛
把我所有的道路
在市中心的橋樑
就是我提請一些血液
在市中心的橋樑
我無法獲得足夠的
在市中心的橋樑
忘了我的愛
在市中心的橋樑
我給了我生命
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Sunday, August 2, 2009
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Did I Really Just Say That?!
Where in the World is D Today?
Laughing At What He Just Said, OUT LOUD.
There are some things that I’ve said ‘out loud’ in the last 5 months that I can not imagine I would have said before coming to Taiwan. Here’s the list I’ve been keeping:
What the heck is the cleaning lady doing in here? (I said this while standing at a urinal.)
Dude! Argyle socks at the gym?!
I REALLY LIKE Tofu and Soybean milk!
There's more than one type of Tofu?!
Why are the shoes wrapped in plastic?
It has got to take special skill to wear a mini-skirt and pumps when riding a scooter. But women manage it well.
You just line-cut me for Luu Wei!
Wah Cao!
A woman in the men’s room would have seemed odd 5 months ago. (Again, said while standing at a urinal.)
Are you kidding me? A pink helmet! Dude!
I was just trying to say 7, 8!
Umm… do you think you can drive on the other side of the street?
Have you ever heard of Super Dave?
KTV is so cool!
Really! I’m not making this up! For a long time, Bubbles was his best friend in the world.
OK….... I’m guessing the middle finger here means the same as it does in the U.S.
Smoking and texting while driving a scooter seems like a bad idea to me. I'm just sayin'...
Children in Taiwan are fearless. (referring to little kids on scooters)
They do WHAT?! In Thailand!! (referring to a conversation about transgendered males.)
No way that’s a dude! He makes a very pretty girl. (again, about transgendered males in Thailand.)
No Thanks, shooting at each other with BB guns that look and shoot like machine guns isn’t my idea of a good time. (This is from a conversation with another Westerner. Canadians.. go figure.) LOL
Beetle nuts aren’t made out of beetles?! Are They?
No, I DON’T want to choose snake for soup.
I like the way it tastes. Don’t ruin it by telling me what it is.
Note to self: Stop speaking in metaphors and movie quotes.
Chinese R&B... That's a phrase I would have never said a month ago.
Where can I by a mask?
I am the exception to the "foreigner guy" rule.
No, people don’t treat me like an animal. Panda is just a metaphor.
I have GOT to learn Chinese faster!
Don’t be upset at me. I didn’t make up the name. There’s a reason they call it Stinky Tofu!
I am Free Entertainment at the gym. Especially step class!
I don't think asking someone to take their mask off BEFORE going into the is asking too much.
I appreciate the faith you have in me, but I think it’s a bad idea for me to drive.
Laughing At What He Just Said, OUT LOUD.
There are some things that I’ve said ‘out loud’ in the last 5 months that I can not imagine I would have said before coming to Taiwan. Here’s the list I’ve been keeping:
What the heck is the cleaning lady doing in here? (I said this while standing at a urinal.)
Dude! Argyle socks at the gym?!
I REALLY LIKE Tofu and Soybean milk!
There's more than one type of Tofu?!
Why are the shoes wrapped in plastic?
It has got to take special skill to wear a mini-skirt and pumps when riding a scooter. But women manage it well.
You just line-cut me for Luu Wei!
Wah Cao!
A woman in the men’s room would have seemed odd 5 months ago. (Again, said while standing at a urinal.)
Are you kidding me? A pink helmet! Dude!
I was just trying to say 7, 8!
Umm… do you think you can drive on the other side of the street?
Have you ever heard of Super Dave?
KTV is so cool!
Really! I’m not making this up! For a long time, Bubbles was his best friend in the world.
OK….... I’m guessing the middle finger here means the same as it does in the U.S.
Smoking and texting while driving a scooter seems like a bad idea to me. I'm just sayin'...
Children in Taiwan are fearless. (referring to little kids on scooters)
They do WHAT?! In Thailand!! (referring to a conversation about transgendered males.)
No way that’s a dude! He makes a very pretty girl. (again, about transgendered males in Thailand.)
No Thanks, shooting at each other with BB guns that look and shoot like machine guns isn’t my idea of a good time. (This is from a conversation with another Westerner. Canadians.. go figure.) LOL
Beetle nuts aren’t made out of beetles?! Are They?
No, I DON’T want to choose snake for soup.
I like the way it tastes. Don’t ruin it by telling me what it is.
Note to self: Stop speaking in metaphors and movie quotes.
Chinese R&B... That's a phrase I would have never said a month ago.
Where can I by a mask?
I am the exception to the "foreigner guy" rule.
No, people don’t treat me like an animal. Panda is just a metaphor.
I have GOT to learn Chinese faster!
Don’t be upset at me. I didn’t make up the name. There’s a reason they call it Stinky Tofu!
I am Free Entertainment at the gym. Especially step class!
I don't think asking someone to take their mask off BEFORE going into the is asking too much.
I appreciate the faith you have in me, but I think it’s a bad idea for me to drive.
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Knock, Knock. Who's There? (Do I really want to know?)
Where in the World is D Today?
Running Away from the Devils Door?
I am in a funk and feeling pretty shitty right now. I am meeting a training at the gym in about 40 minutes but have this need to write.
OK, here's the deal. I have always tended to be a great observer of the Human Condition. People behave in any number of ways based on any given variables to a situation. There are no absolutes. We all are fallible and we all have great capacity for good. You can be the world's staunchest critic of gun control, but threaten your child's safety and you will pull the trigger. You can be the world's most righteous person, but if you get hungry enough you will steal money for food or the food itself. We all ultimately will ACT in our own best interest. So why do we, or in this case me, tend to shoot ourselves, myself, in the foot when it comes to certain situations in my life?! What is wrong with us, me?!
I try desparetly to present myself and a decent carrying man, But still manage to find the most unbalanced indecent people to associate with. If we know, and I think we do instinctively know, what is good and what is bad for us. Why do we continue to have blinders to the bad things/people.
(I've started and stopped several sentences here, but there's no "good" way to say what I need/desire to say and here's why. These words before can be twisted and manipulated to whatever the reader WANTS to see. It doesn't matter what I ACTUALLY said, they will take it however they want. Or maybe they will actually take my words and frame them to someone else in a way that is totally incorrect or change one word here or there that will change the context and meaning. This is the age of instant communication and virtual everything. I honestly don't know if anything "real" exists anymore. How do you know if someone is lying or telling the truth. Everything can't be true, neither can everything be a lie. So how do you know?
You don't. You will believe whatever you want to believe. Seriously, how many people actually believed Sarah Palin to be a good choice to be Vice Presidential nominee?! Millions of people did!! I couldn't disagree with them more, but they genuinely believed it. Was I right and them wrong or vice versa. I'd be willing to bet ALL those same people still believe it. Fortunately, we don't have to be concerned with it now, well at least for a little while.
So you get my meaning right. So many things are so subjective. I am owning my mistake of letting reckless hurtful people into my life and am paying consequences for not being entirely honest about things that were none of their business to begin with. Does that mean, I stop talking to and trusting people. Honestly, the answer to that is YES, for a little while. But when the dust settles, I'm likely to become my same gullible self and trust way to easily. But hopefully I will listen more carefully to the little voice better that says, "RUN!!!!!!"
So Be careful. But still try to give people the benefit of the doubt. There's got to be a balance in there somewhere.
Knock, Knock. Who's There????????? Ask yourself, Do I really want to know who or what is on the other side of that door?
If you go knocking on the Devils door, Don't be surprised when he answers!
Peace To You. (I'm desperately looking for some myself.)
Running Away from the Devils Door?
I am in a funk and feeling pretty shitty right now. I am meeting a training at the gym in about 40 minutes but have this need to write.
OK, here's the deal. I have always tended to be a great observer of the Human Condition. People behave in any number of ways based on any given variables to a situation. There are no absolutes. We all are fallible and we all have great capacity for good. You can be the world's staunchest critic of gun control, but threaten your child's safety and you will pull the trigger. You can be the world's most righteous person, but if you get hungry enough you will steal money for food or the food itself. We all ultimately will ACT in our own best interest. So why do we, or in this case me, tend to shoot ourselves, myself, in the foot when it comes to certain situations in my life?! What is wrong with us, me?!
I try desparetly to present myself and a decent carrying man, But still manage to find the most unbalanced indecent people to associate with. If we know, and I think we do instinctively know, what is good and what is bad for us. Why do we continue to have blinders to the bad things/people.
(I've started and stopped several sentences here, but there's no "good" way to say what I need/desire to say and here's why. These words before can be twisted and manipulated to whatever the reader WANTS to see. It doesn't matter what I ACTUALLY said, they will take it however they want. Or maybe they will actually take my words and frame them to someone else in a way that is totally incorrect or change one word here or there that will change the context and meaning. This is the age of instant communication and virtual everything. I honestly don't know if anything "real" exists anymore. How do you know if someone is lying or telling the truth. Everything can't be true, neither can everything be a lie. So how do you know?
You don't. You will believe whatever you want to believe. Seriously, how many people actually believed Sarah Palin to be a good choice to be Vice Presidential nominee?! Millions of people did!! I couldn't disagree with them more, but they genuinely believed it. Was I right and them wrong or vice versa. I'd be willing to bet ALL those same people still believe it. Fortunately, we don't have to be concerned with it now, well at least for a little while.
So you get my meaning right. So many things are so subjective. I am owning my mistake of letting reckless hurtful people into my life and am paying consequences for not being entirely honest about things that were none of their business to begin with. Does that mean, I stop talking to and trusting people. Honestly, the answer to that is YES, for a little while. But when the dust settles, I'm likely to become my same gullible self and trust way to easily. But hopefully I will listen more carefully to the little voice better that says, "RUN!!!!!!"
So Be careful. But still try to give people the benefit of the doubt. There's got to be a balance in there somewhere.
Knock, Knock. Who's There????????? Ask yourself, Do I really want to know who or what is on the other side of that door?
If you go knocking on the Devils door, Don't be surprised when he answers!
Peace To You. (I'm desperately looking for some myself.)
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