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Where in the World is D Today?
Trying to figure out a new path out of this cave.
OK, here's the deal. My mood over the last 2 months has been bad.... real bad. I used to know the way out when I would get in these funks. But things are different now. I can't describe it really other than to say my circumstances are different. I'm still the same guy, I think, but being in Taiwan has given this..... thing... a new dimension.
I don't know if you can call emotions a thing but I haven't got the words. And that's just it, no clarity of thought. I manage to do my teaching very well. In class, I'm ALL There. Away from class.... I'm a total flake.
So how is my mood today? Ah.... So-so. But when I'm in a funk, I don't feel like writing. The great irony in that is writing helps the funk dissipate. I am hoping it will help a little tonight. After I post this I will go to bed. Writing helps get stuff out of my head. But when I'm in "flake mode" its hard to gather up those thoughts and shepherd them out of my head and onto the page.
I am trying to get back in the habit of writing. If you are a regular reader, thanks. Not so much for reading but for being interested in me, for whatever reason. I feel a lot of isolation. If someone shows interest in me, I'm always a little surprised. (sorry my self-esteem is not at it's optimum right now.)
Good Luck
D
Monday, September 28, 2009
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Something Made Smile Today
Where in the World is D?
Coming Up Air.
My last few posts to the blog have been .... well..... Not terribly encouraging. So I thought I would tell you something today that made me smile.
I got to TEACH!
Yeah, that's it. Nothing earth shaking or deeply thoughtful. No grand revelation or Salma Hayek proposing to me. Just teaching.
I like teaching. Sometimes, I am most at peace in the classroom. I'm sure there's some deep psychological reason, but I'm not going to over think it. I'm just going to enjoy the feeling.
Good Luck!
戴格智
Coming Up Air.
My last few posts to the blog have been .... well..... Not terribly encouraging. So I thought I would tell you something today that made me smile.
I got to TEACH!
Yeah, that's it. Nothing earth shaking or deeply thoughtful. No grand revelation or Salma Hayek proposing to me. Just teaching.
I like teaching. Sometimes, I am most at peace in the classroom. I'm sure there's some deep psychological reason, but I'm not going to over think it. I'm just going to enjoy the feeling.
Good Luck!
戴格智
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Something New for Non-Native English Speakers 一些新的非英語母語者
Where In The World is D Today?
Adding new features to the blog.
Hello, If you look over to the left, you will see Google Translate. It is not a "perfect" translation instrument but it's better than others I've tried. If you are not a native English speaker and are interested in my blog give it a try!
If you're a native English speaker, a friend or family member in the U.S. Check out the Link below and learn some Chinese. Peggy is a Super Cool friend of mind and has fun teaching. I think you'll like her videos. http://www.peggyteacheschinese.com/
Good Luck
戴格智
凡在今天的世界是D？
增加新的功能的博客。
您好，如果您查看的左側，您會看到谷歌翻譯。這不是一個“完美”的翻譯工具，但總比別人我已經試過。如果您不是以英語為母語，並有興趣在我的博客嘗試一下！
祝您好運
戴格智
Adding new features to the blog.
Hello, If you look over to the left, you will see Google Translate. It is not a "perfect" translation instrument but it's better than others I've tried. If you are not a native English speaker and are interested in my blog give it a try!
If you're a native English speaker, a friend or family member in the U.S. Check out the Link below and learn some Chinese. Peggy is a Super Cool friend of mind and has fun teaching. I think you'll like her videos. http://www.peggyteacheschinese.com/
Good Luck
戴格智
凡在今天的世界是D？
增加新的功能的博客。
您好，如果您查看的左側，您會看到谷歌翻譯。這不是一個“完美”的翻譯工具，但總比別人我已經試過。如果您不是以英語為母語，並有興趣在我的博客嘗試一下！
祝您好運
戴格智
Run Silent, Run Deep
Where in the World is D Today?
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Run Silent, Run Deep is a old war movie about a submarine crew. It seems an appropriate metaphor now.
Last week I was in a real funky mood. My mood is generally better this week. But I find myself talking less. Being more inwardly reflective. Dark clouds often hover on the horizon. Sometimes they roll in and stay like a typhoon in my mind. Sometimes, it's just a quick thunderstorm. It comes and goes within a matter of hours. I'll give you the sources without explanation. Most people don't take the time to really try to SEE and not judge, so why bother.
Physical Pain EVERY DAY for the last 3-4 months.
Loneliness
Frustration with learning a new language
Good Luck
戴格智
????????????????
Run Silent, Run Deep is a old war movie about a submarine crew. It seems an appropriate metaphor now.
Last week I was in a real funky mood. My mood is generally better this week. But I find myself talking less. Being more inwardly reflective. Dark clouds often hover on the horizon. Sometimes they roll in and stay like a typhoon in my mind. Sometimes, it's just a quick thunderstorm. It comes and goes within a matter of hours. I'll give you the sources without explanation. Most people don't take the time to really try to SEE and not judge, so why bother.
Physical Pain EVERY DAY for the last 3-4 months.
Loneliness
Frustration with learning a new language
Good Luck
戴格智
Thursday, September 3, 2009
The Truth or A Reasonable Lie
Where in the World is D Today?
I have no idea.
This will be short, I think. There are three versions of "the truth". There is 1) My Truth, 2) Your Truth, 3) The Real Truth. (I can always tell you what I really think. But I don't think you really want to know. So I tell you a reasonable lie. Something close to but not actually MY truth and keeps YOU happy at the same time.)
Truth's number 1 and 2 are subjective. Based on our own perspective and life experience. What's true for you may not necessarily be true for me.
So what is the REAL TRUTH, not based on my or your opinion and perspective......?
I was thinking of this as I walked to work. Right now, I am not in the greatest place emotionally. I was searching my head and knowledge for something that was Universally TRUE without subjectivity for EVERY person on the earth. I could only come up with this in my 10 minute walk.
THIS, I know to be true for EVERYONE. The sun rises in the east and sets in the west. If that ceases to exist, WE ALL just had a VERY... BAD.... day.
At the end I usually say Peace. I can't today or any more. I have none. I haven't for a long time, even before I came to Taiwan. Hoped to find some here. Doesn't look like it's gonna happen. So I will say... simply...
Good Luck
戴格智
I have no idea.
This will be short, I think. There are three versions of "the truth". There is 1) My Truth, 2) Your Truth, 3) The Real Truth. (I can always tell you what I really think. But I don't think you really want to know. So I tell you a reasonable lie. Something close to but not actually MY truth and keeps YOU happy at the same time.)
Truth's number 1 and 2 are subjective. Based on our own perspective and life experience. What's true for you may not necessarily be true for me.
So what is the REAL TRUTH, not based on my or your opinion and perspective......?
I was thinking of this as I walked to work. Right now, I am not in the greatest place emotionally. I was searching my head and knowledge for something that was Universally TRUE without subjectivity for EVERY person on the earth. I could only come up with this in my 10 minute walk.
THIS, I know to be true for EVERYONE. The sun rises in the east and sets in the west. If that ceases to exist, WE ALL just had a VERY... BAD.... day.
At the end I usually say Peace. I can't today or any more. I have none. I haven't for a long time, even before I came to Taiwan. Hoped to find some here. Doesn't look like it's gonna happen. So I will say... simply...
Good Luck
戴格智
Monday, August 31, 2009
A New School Year
Where in the World is D today?
Looking over the balcony at joyful kids running and playing.
Today is the first day of school. It's been a really quiet day for me. I'm looking forward to spending a whole year with my students. I want to see what I and they can do in a whole year.
Coming in the middle of the year last year was an interestest transition for us all. This job, as much as I love it, can be filled with periods of ...... inactivity. Today's one of those days. So I watch the kids on their break and smile.
I want to be a good teacher. It's the one the few thing I don't question in my life. I know I can teach. I want to get in there and do it! (Somebody keep note of that when I'm feeling less enthusiastic in the future.)
But in the meantime, I will soak up all that unbridaled energy and try to focus it into something strong.
Peace
戴格智
Looking over the balcony at joyful kids running and playing.
Today is the first day of school. It's been a really quiet day for me. I'm looking forward to spending a whole year with my students. I want to see what I and they can do in a whole year.
Coming in the middle of the year last year was an interestest transition for us all. This job, as much as I love it, can be filled with periods of ...... inactivity. Today's one of those days. So I watch the kids on their break and smile.
I want to be a good teacher. It's the one the few thing I don't question in my life. I know I can teach. I want to get in there and do it! (Somebody keep note of that when I'm feeling less enthusiastic in the future.)
But in the meantime, I will soak up all that unbridaled energy and try to focus it into something strong.
Peace
戴格智
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Simple and Mundane
Where in the World is D Today?
Nowhere. Today is the same as yesterday and the day before that.
A few days ago I was chatting online with Tim's girlfriend, Alia. Alia is truly one of my favorite people on this earth. During the chat she made a comment that was something like, "Since you left you have all this crazy stuff happen to you." I of course responded with I only write about the "interesting" stuff and my life is not as crazy as it may appear on the blog. If I work to keep a daily account of my life on the blog, it would look a little something like this.....
Got up. Turned on CNN. (CNN in Tawain is Different than in the U.S. It's based in Hong Kong and doesn't have any national focus. It's very global.)
More coverage of "The Ashes" Cricket tournament?! Good lord, how long is this match going to be?! And who cares. Do I really need to know the weather in Mumbai?
Take a shower, have a glass of doujiang (soybean milk) and some bread. And I'm out the door.
Walk to work. Waved at 4 people along the way.
Said one generic good morning to my co-corkes when I come in, turn on my computer and get some hot water for my morning cup of liu cha (green tea).
Check my email, and MSN.
Check the U.S. news on the internet.
*Depending on the day, I am either teaching, surfing the net, or chatting on MSN, or practicing my Chinese. It will probably be some combination of all those activities on any given day.
Get of work and walk to Starbucks or the gym.
Get some dinner, walk home.
Talk to Jackie, the doorman, for a few minutes and go to my apartment.
Check my mail, maybe chat on msn, maybe watch a movie. Read a little Go to bed.
There you have it. My life in a nutshell. Not very interesting.
Is there more stuff that happens during the day, yeah, but I don't think you want to read. "Crossed the street 100 times today and didn't die."
Being the thinker that I am, my brain is of course a lot more active than my body.
My thoughts as I walk from point to point range from the ridiculous, "I wish I could make all time stop! And if I could what would I do?" To the really Duh, that's so obvious, "Boy, this walk would be a lot easier if the sidewalk was level." But lately most of my thoughts as I walk are about my foot, which still hurts, and if I am "Doing whatever it is in Taiwan I'm supposed to be doing." You know my regular search for meaning and purpose.
So there you have it, My so-called life in a nutshell. I shouldn't be sarcastic. I have a good life. Today I was able to get out of the bed; think, dress, eat, and go to the bathroom on my own. A lot of people who wanted to, couldn't do that today. So even as I search for meaning and the ever elusive peace and comfort, I know it could be worse and I am truly thankful for my simple and mundane life.
Peace
戴格智
Nowhere. Today is the same as yesterday and the day before that.
A few days ago I was chatting online with Tim's girlfriend, Alia. Alia is truly one of my favorite people on this earth. During the chat she made a comment that was something like, "Since you left you have all this crazy stuff happen to you." I of course responded with I only write about the "interesting" stuff and my life is not as crazy as it may appear on the blog. If I work to keep a daily account of my life on the blog, it would look a little something like this.....
Got up. Turned on CNN. (CNN in Tawain is Different than in the U.S. It's based in Hong Kong and doesn't have any national focus. It's very global.)
More coverage of "The Ashes" Cricket tournament?! Good lord, how long is this match going to be?! And who cares. Do I really need to know the weather in Mumbai?
Take a shower, have a glass of doujiang (soybean milk) and some bread. And I'm out the door.
Walk to work. Waved at 4 people along the way.
Said one generic good morning to my co-corkes when I come in, turn on my computer and get some hot water for my morning cup of liu cha (green tea).
Check my email, and MSN.
Check the U.S. news on the internet.
*Depending on the day, I am either teaching, surfing the net, or chatting on MSN, or practicing my Chinese. It will probably be some combination of all those activities on any given day.
Get of work and walk to Starbucks or the gym.
Get some dinner, walk home.
Talk to Jackie, the doorman, for a few minutes and go to my apartment.
Check my mail, maybe chat on msn, maybe watch a movie. Read a little Go to bed.
There you have it. My life in a nutshell. Not very interesting.
Is there more stuff that happens during the day, yeah, but I don't think you want to read. "Crossed the street 100 times today and didn't die."
Being the thinker that I am, my brain is of course a lot more active than my body.
My thoughts as I walk from point to point range from the ridiculous, "I wish I could make all time stop! And if I could what would I do?" To the really Duh, that's so obvious, "Boy, this walk would be a lot easier if the sidewalk was level." But lately most of my thoughts as I walk are about my foot, which still hurts, and if I am "Doing whatever it is in Taiwan I'm supposed to be doing." You know my regular search for meaning and purpose.
So there you have it, My so-called life in a nutshell. I shouldn't be sarcastic. I have a good life. Today I was able to get out of the bed; think, dress, eat, and go to the bathroom on my own. A lot of people who wanted to, couldn't do that today. So even as I search for meaning and the ever elusive peace and comfort, I know it could be worse and I am truly thankful for my simple and mundane life.
Peace
戴格智
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